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My Fiance’s Letter to His Pre-Autoimmune Self: “Congratulations! You’re About to Get Real, Real Messed Up”

My Fiance’s Letter to His Pre-Autoimmune Self: “Congratulations! You’re About to Get Real, Real Messed Up”

In October 2014, my then-boyfriend, Andy, showed the first signs of dermatomyositis, an autoimmune disorder that affects the muscles, skin, and joints. We were just moving in together, so we were ready for more, but the consequences of this sickness forced increased intimacy on us […]

Morning Routine for Anxiety and Productivity: My Hot Mess of a Work in Progress

Morning Routine for Anxiety and Productivity: My Hot Mess of a Work in Progress

I intercept the cat on his urgent mission across the diagonal of the bed, a path that ensures optimal contact with sleeping human bodies. I carry him to the food that’s been there all night on my grandmother’s china saucer that I feel simultaneously good […]

The Worst of It Is Cheese

The Worst of It Is Cheese

“The results will take two weeks,” my doctor told me. “But you’ll only hear from me about it if something is wrong.” As she explained this, I got the sense it should be a relief for me to hear this – that as long as […]

The Doctor Is Going to Find Something Horribly Wrong with Me: Worry Journal Exercise

The Doctor Is Going to Find Something Horribly Wrong with Me: Worry Journal Exercise

I haven’t had a physical exam in over 7 years. Not because I’m afraid of going to the doctor (even though I am and self-diagnose every chance I get). Or because I was raised to stay away from doctors (even though I was, because the […]

Paint by Touch: Guided Color Meditation (4 Minutes)

Paint by Touch: Guided Color Meditation (4 Minutes)

In this 4-minute guided color meditation, you begin in front of a giant white canvas. No watercolors, no paintbrush. But that’s okay; you won’t need them. Use the recording or, if you’re leading a meditation, you can read it yourself using the transcript below. Paint by Touch […]

Fall Leaves: Guided Meditation (7 Minutes)

Fall Leaves: Guided Meditation (7 Minutes)

In this 7-minute guided meditation, you begin at a trailhead on the edge of the woods on a crisp, cool fall day. Use the recording or, if you’re leading a meditation, you can read it yourself using the transcript below. Fall Leaves Close your eyes and […]